The deeper I challenge myself and the deeper I journey through finding and exploring my authentic self, the more of an understanding I have of the mother I am and want to be for my children, the intentional existence and experience I want to have and share here and really connecting with my purpose on this journey. Life has been so crazy the past few years and although I am sure it won’t slow down in many respects, I aim to live a more present, slower pace and respectful existence.
I have been meditating and committing to my yoga practice again because the time feels right, it brings me so much clarity and makes me feel present and content in a pyshical and emotional state. I have also been working with crystals and essential oils and really sitting with myself and allowing myself the time and space to be and allow what is meant to unfold to do just that. I feel a strong connection and a trust between myself and the earth, I am venturing into a new chapter, I am making the choices that feel right for me right now, trusting that intuition and not trying to control but allow things to come to me and flow, in their natural order.
Learning to trust my instincts even though this should come naturally has become something that at times I have to remind myself to surrender to, collectively we are fed so much negativity and fear that we even forget we have nothing to fear when we go within. Even through the worry of what others might think, say or feel to be true, we must reconnect inward and follow and trust our instincts of what feels right to ones self. I heard someone saying the other day, something along the lines of “you may as well do what you want to do in life because people are going to judge you either way.” This is so true, it’s the harsh judgements of the world that can prevent us from making honest choices yet even when we try to please we are left feeling unfulfilled and still judged and mis understood. So follow your heart, with good intentions leading you, the rest doesn’t matter because this is your journey, your story.
I am in a place right now where I am not entirely sure where I want to be in my life, I have rough ideas of things and inspirations I want to achieve although not entirely clear of a direct path. I feel so certain some days and hazy on the subject on others. Although I am a creative, I have moods which change with the seasons and I allow them to just be, it’s apart of my nature and I love to be free to express myself, something I will always allow space for. Amongst this I am feeling really in tune with myself and totally trusting I am on the right path. It’s all about the journey, not the destination right? Even in the moments where I am feeling completely lost and they are fewer and far between I feel connected to my journey here in a way which I have never before. I trust the process, I trust my instincts and I trust my capabilities.
We are all evolving at different times, speeds, sounds, feels, it doesn’t matter where you are at in your journey as long as you are sitting in a place that feels right for you. If you aren’t , you have the power to create change, we all possess such unlimited potential. The forces around us can push us down, break us for a time but they can’t define our spirit. We are the truth we seek. So please share to anyone who you feel maybe on a similar path, want to be or that you think this may resonate with because we are all here to share this human experience and I would love to connect. Peace